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whatisthatmelody | Back to life alternate timeline au aka a mouthful!
His last moments alive are gasped, choking. Struggling for air. Harold almost thought he'd make it, he'd had enough oxygen in his air tank for about thirty minutes, but as he fought to find a way back into Horizon colony, he'd quickly realized that the subjects had done a full lockdown.
It didn't stop him from trying even still, trying till his last breath gave out.
It's like a jolt shoots through him, waking Harold with a start. He sits up, blinking wildly, then flips back into bed. Bed? What? His mind wonders "a dream?", but no no he knows that wasn't a dream. He'd felt it, he'd lived that.
His eyes dart around, familiar things all around, but this isn't right. No, no this is wrong. He grabs the phone on the desk because his bed, flicks it on to see the date and can't believe what he's reading. Flicks the camera on to look at himself at his face.
It's him. Hair more full and his hairline not as drawn back, no gray. No crowd feet at the corner of his eyes and his forehead much smoother. What the hell... it's then that he hears the familiar sound of an orchestral tune coming from the bathroom.
How many times had he woken up to that or joined Siebren in the shower in the morning to start their day? His mind is a wash of confusion and sadness as he looks at the texts messages on the phone. His mother is glad he's enjoying the beginning of his first semester. College? Jesus is that... yeah that made sense with what he's, seeing but this isn't the room he'd stayed in during that time.
What the hell is going on?
It didn't stop him from trying even still, trying till his last breath gave out.
It's like a jolt shoots through him, waking Harold with a start. He sits up, blinking wildly, then flips back into bed. Bed? What? His mind wonders "a dream?", but no no he knows that wasn't a dream. He'd felt it, he'd lived that.
His eyes dart around, familiar things all around, but this isn't right. No, no this is wrong. He grabs the phone on the desk because his bed, flicks it on to see the date and can't believe what he's reading. Flicks the camera on to look at himself at his face.
It's him. Hair more full and his hairline not as drawn back, no gray. No crowd feet at the corner of his eyes and his forehead much smoother. What the hell... it's then that he hears the familiar sound of an orchestral tune coming from the bathroom.
How many times had he woken up to that or joined Siebren in the shower in the morning to start their day? His mind is a wash of confusion and sadness as he looks at the texts messages on the phone. His mother is glad he's enjoying the beginning of his first semester. College? Jesus is that... yeah that made sense with what he's, seeing but this isn't the room he'd stayed in during that time.
What the hell is going on?
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"Yeah, sure. Mostly. You...you might want to wait ten minutes or so. Maybe....ahhhh...enjoy breakfast first."
He was slowly fading back to his usual skin tone.
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After a little "dank je" he nibbles on the sweet but satisfying favorite of one Siebren de Kupier. Now he's staring again, eyes flickering over every little change, the differences in his features. Mostly he just has to stop himself from getting up and hugging him so very tightly. He'd missed him so damn much. If this isn't some weird dream, if he's really not dead. If this is real right here right now...
What if he wakes up from this too? What if Horizon wasn't real either? His mind had a lot to fight with at the moment.
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Siebren blinked and cleared his throat.
"Harold...are...are you alright?
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"Sorry, just feeling a little off today. Think that hot shower will help." Scooting out of bed, it takes him a second to grab a change of clothes, it's like his mind knows where things are yet at the same time his memories from Horizon fight against all of it. Like two minds in one body.
Making his escape into the bathroom he takes a few seconds to look around, seeing their things together, it's not the same as the very teeny tiny cramped bathroom on Horizon had been, not that this is large by any means, but it feels familiar. Stripping and getting into the shower he's happy that the water is at least warm, but when he sees the body wash that Siebren had used on Horizon, that Harold definitely borrowed as well, something in him snaps. He will wash up, but if he takes a bit of a longer shower to let out a bit of emotions as the water runs cold... yeah. Yeah.
Sorry if he used your caramel body wash, Siebren, he only used a little. Won't even notice. Coming back out he offers a little smile to Siebren that doesn't reach his eyes and plops on his bed to grab some socks to yank on. Then he's going through his phone again to look up his schedule and classes, he'd always been good about keeping track of that stuff so it's easy to get a handle on that.
"I could really use a coffee right about now. You want to go grab something before class?" They had different classes, but that didn't mean they couldn't go caffeinate together.
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"I hope it does."
His voice was soft, friendly. He was fond of Harold and so far as he could tell, he trusted him...so he took the young man's excuse at face value and reasoned that it might be something Harold did not want to talk about. As such, he did not pry.
Harold is right about him not noticing that some of his body wash was missing, but he would have gladly shared it anyway.
Siebren checked his own phone, looking at his emails and then scrolling through cat pictures until Harold emerged from the bathroom and offered him a small smile. Unlike Harold, Siebren's definitely reached his eyes. His pale blue ones sparkled.
"I feel quite the same. I think it would be a good idea. One moment, please."
He eased off of his bed and opened one of his drawers retrieving a pair of black jeans before dipping into the bathroom and emerging a few moments later wearing them. He tossed his sweatpants onto his bed for later.
"Can't go out in the world indecent now, can I?"
He grabbed a few items off his desk and dropped them into his messenger bag and pulled it only his shoulder. He smiled widely and clicked his heels together once his shoes were on.
"Ready when you are."
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While he gets ready Harold pulls his shoes on and grabs his messenger bag, stuffing the books and such he'll need for the day. It's still so weird to him that he seems to almost automatically do these things, know a lot about stuff he feels he shouldn't. Like he's got to minds in the same head.
Pulling on a sweater he realizes it's a college sweater. The college he'd submitted to along with the main one he'd wanted to get into. Guess it made sense why he was speaking Dutch, why Siebren is here. It's some strange alternate universe dream, it has to be.
Harold doesn't know how or even if it's true. He has no idea what's real right now. He smiles when Siebren comes out, turning to him, messenger bag over his shoulder.
"Ready." When they head out he's half following Siebren and half hazily walking to a place his body seems to remember walking to more than once.
"... do you ever feel like you're living in a dream?" He asks, a little quiet, almost like he's afraid someone else will hear and think he's crazy.
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"No, I should say not. I think I'd blind everyone."
He nodded when Harold said he was ready and opened the door to their room for the other young man.
The air was crisp and sun was shining. Siebren smiled and breathed deeply, taking it all in. He looked over at Harold and tried to judge if his roommate was being serious with the question. He nodded, brow furrowing, thinking.
"Do you mean...disconnected from my peers, the world around me...like I should be someplace else?"
All the time.
But...sometimes more than others...especially lately.
He shrugged.
"Sometimes, I suppose."
He thought a bit more.
"Lately? Well...yes, but...it is a good dream so...I can't really complain."
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"No not... entirely." Harold fidgets with the strap of his messenger bag, "But I guess my dream is good too." He glances up at Siebren then, a little frown on his face even as he expresses that his dream isn't anything to be upset over. It isn't, he's happy to be here, to experience this. To see Siebren again.
"This is my dream though. Being here right now." God he knows that will sound crazy, but since he's woken up he feels it so may as well indulge in it just a little.
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"Harold...do you mean like...right now? Like I'm not real? Or like I am real but something is off?"
He paused.
"I had a dream like that the night before school started, you know? I dreamed I was looking through a telescope at the Earth. It felt real, like I had done it...but...I've never been outside of Europe."
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"Feel real." God what does he even say? Should he explain it? I'm actually in my late 40's and work on a space station on the moon? Me and all of my fellow crew were murdered by genetically altered primates? He'll sound more mad than he might now.
"You-" Siebren tells him of a dream he'd had and it can't be coincidence, but what does it mean? Harold swallows a while bunch of nerves and uncertainty down.
"Maybe I'm just tired. Start of college, moving in... babbling about living in a dream. You sure you want to be my roommate?" Harold smiles weakly at Siebren.
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"Harold, I am sure there is no one I would rather have for my roommate than you. At the very least, you keep things interesting. I certainly can't complain about that."
He nodded towards the small coffee shop.
"My treat today, what do you say? Sounds like you need a little extra kick to make sure you are awake."
Siebren had a good feeling about Harold. Just being around him was enough to soothe his nerves. Normally he fretted about new roommates, but Harold...Harold just made him feel at ease...like he had known him a long time. Perhaps in another life, they had known one another.
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"An astute observation Dr. de Kuiper." He laughs a little, before realizing what he's said. Not a doctor yet, but maybe he'll take it as a haha teasing joke. Harold nervously fixes his glasses and tries to stop being so damn weird and awkward. Just relax. He's just making things worse.
"Thank you, Siebren, I'll pay you back. Tomorrow on me?" If he's here tomorrow. If he doesn't wake up. If he's not really dead.
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It sounds right...feels right...like some long running joke between them....though this is the first time that Harold had referred to him as such. Siebren found he rather liked it.
"Alright. It is a date then, Dr. Winston."
He beamed and nodded.
Wait...what? Why did he say that?
Siebren managed to catch himself.
"That is...if you like...I'm sorry...I hope I didn't overstep."
It feels so familiar to say that.
Did...did he just flirt with Harold about some old joke between them that wasn't an old joke at all.
"I'm sorry, I must seem to familiar. I just...feel comfortable with you. Like I have known you longer than a few weeks. Perhaps...we were friends in another life."
He smiled at that.
Yes. Perhaps. In the infinite universes he believed existed, surely in one of them a Siebren de Kuiper had met a Harold Winston.
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He wished it would stop.
Doctor Winston.
Yes! That's who he is! He wants to tell him everything, explain it all, but could he? Should he? At Siebren saying it's a date his cheeks flush as his roommate flounders awkwardly beside him. This is rather familiar as well.
So very Siebren.
"You always worry too much. It's okay, really." It's something Harold wouldn't push away. The familiarity. The closeness. He'd missed it so much and missed Siebren as well. If this is what fate was going to give him he'd take it.
"Maybe, it's a possibility we can't count out. The universe is vast and possibilities endless." He can't help but smile in kind at Siebren.
"I think we'd have been good friends in another life."
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His sharp features softened at Harold's reaffirming what he thought. That they would have been good friends in another life. He hadn't been shut down or told he was looking too far into something. It had not been a casual agreement to get him to be quiet either.
Siebren's smile was arm and his eyes downcast as he fidgeted with his fingers.
"You know...I...I hope we get to be good friends in this one, too. I...would like that very much."
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Now Siebren had his shy soft moments when he knew him, but it's as if he's even more so now. So unsure and ready for any sort of negative rebuttal or dismissal of what he's said. Or of his feelings. It's interesting to see, but at the same time he hated that someone so good so wonderful and brilliant as him would ever feel that way.
"We've got a good headstart I like to think." Harold offers him a smile in turn, "A roommate who doesn't steal all off the hot water in the morning. Just most of it." He chuckles, then his head lifts seeing the place he knows he gets coffee from in the morning most of the time. Some how he just knows it.
"Plus you're getting me coffee. You're my best friend as far as I'm concerned."
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He's painfully aware of his size compared to others and he's always been a little behind his peers in terms of being able to read and form relationships. His brain was much better suited to concepts and theories. The universe was so massive...so full of potential and wonder and mystery...and it entranced him like nothing on Earth.
His parents had noticed his talent....appreciated his mind...and also made note of certain...difficulties he had on a more social level...and had always encouraged him to be kind. The universe was vast, but it was cold, too. A little warmth...a little kindness went a long way.
There was a warmth in his heart at Harold saying such things...that they had a good head start...that buying him coffee made him his best friend. However silly, it made him feel at home. It was just easy...it felt right.
His grey eyes sparkled and he beamed.
"Yes. Shall we?""
He opened the door and gestured for Harold to enter before him.
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Depending on how long he was going to be here he hopefully would learn more. Harold just wanted to spend as much time as he could with him, even if this wasn't real or just a dream. It's more than he ever thought he'd get with Siebren again.
"So how big am I allowed?" For a drink. Cough.
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"I don't know, Harold. I suppose you'll have to use discretion. I don't think it is a matter of how much you are allowed...but rather how much you can...handle?"
He waggled his eyebrows as if that was somehow terribly clever. His smile remained as he asked.
"So....what is it? What is your pleasure, Harold Winston?"
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To be fair the word he'd used in Dutch definitely was more for that sort of thing anyway. Slip of the tongue, clearly Siebren knew that which is why he was being TERRIBLE. He can't help but scoff at first, but a chuckle follows after. Staring up at the menu he seems to ponder it, though he already knows what he'll say. Typically he'd be good and get a small since he wasn't paying, but if Siebren is going to play it this way.
"My pleasure? Tall and dark." His eyes flicked to Siebren, a quirk lifting the corner of his lips. "Oh you meant coffee, ahem, tall with no cream, extra sugar, shot of hazelnut of you don't mind. Thank you." So still tall and dark. The handsome is implied. If he wasn't already familiar with Siebren he wouldn't have been so bold with his reply back, but he'd known him.
He'd loved him.
It was easier to be a cheeky flirt when your future was colliding with your past... an alternate past even.
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Tall and dark? Why...that would also mean...handsome?HANDSOME? Him? Giant, sharp angled....already hairline receding Siebren de Kuiper?
The implication hit him like a ton of bricks and Siebren could feel his cheeks burn. It was his own fault entirely, he had started it. A crimson wave crawled of his face-Harold would know it...even if Siebren did not know that. He smiled, though, and slowly the red died down.
True to his word, he picked up the tab...and settled on a simple coffee with heavy cream for himself. He held the door for Harold as they exited.
"Ah, thank you, for putting up with me, I ah... don't know what came over me."
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Adorable. Though Harold is a bit worried as he doesn't respond back to it at all beyond ordering their drinks. It's not until they're leaving that he finally speaks up on the matter, much more reserved and almost shy. Harold holds his cup with both hands, sipping carefully as it's indeed quite hot.
"Just because we're roommates doesn't mean I'm putting up with you, Siebren." There's a lot of reasons he's 'putting up with' him. He takes another sip from his coffee, walking along with him and glances up at him, considering things. He guesses if he really is here and this isn't a dream that it's not so bad. He's got Siebren again, no matter how life may go or things between them end up... at least he's alive.
"Don't worry, if you ever overstep any boundaries I'll let you know." He punctuates this with a cheeky little wink.
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“Thank you, Harold.”
His voice was heavy with gratitude.
“The truth is...ever since I met you...even though it was just a few weeks ago...it just feels so easy...like I’ve known you a long time already. It feels...peaceful.”
That cheeky little wink is just too much.
Adorable.
He loved it.
“I have the feeling I might need to be...reeled in from time to time.”
In more ways than one.
“I’ll be in late tonight, just so you know. I don’t want you to worry.”
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But the chance that Siebren is living the same thing as him...
"I feel the same way, you know. Perhaps we're meant to meet. Soulmates of a sort." Not necessarily of the romantic kind, but he likes to think that's what it meant.
"We'll keep each other in line, friend, someone has to." Harold chuckles softly, then stops as the walkway splits off. This is where's they part for the day, at least for now. Classes and all that.
"Oh- late class or study group?" God Harold feels bad about school as he's done all of this, it'll be such a breeze. Not that he's complaining.
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“I like the sound of that. I like it very much, Harold. Thank you.”
He thanked the young man again and meant it.
Too soon, though, it seemed like their paths diverged to their respective buildings. Siebren scratched the back of his neck at the question.
“Ah....no...nothing like that. I’m hoping for something ah...a h bit more romantic tonight.”
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I love how my autocorrect keeps making me look a fool with these typos dang phone tags
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